Placement

After Maddax was born we had to wait 48 hours to take him home. So we would visit Ellysha at the hospital and Maddax in the nursery.

Ellysha was so nice to let us come and hang out with her and spend time up there with Maddax. I had a little bracelet that allowed me to go to the nursery whenever I wanted to see Maddax.

So the day of placement came and we were so excited and nervous! We had to wait to have Ellysha sign her papers and to check the birth father registry on line. Everything checked out and Ellysha signed her papers so we then were able to sign our papers.

That was the best feeling I have had in a long time. It was like a huge weight lifted off my shoulders! I couldn't believe this day was finally here. We had gone through so much to get to this point in our lives.

Ellysha wanted some time with Maddax alone for a few minutes. So we waited until she was ready for us to come in and start the placement.

We finally went to her room and she was sitting in the room with Maddax. I had such a good feeling and so much love for ellysha. We sat and talked and expressed our love and appreciation for her. Which is so hard to put it into the right words. We were so overwhelmed with emotion and the spirit.

Josh and I both agree that day and moment was the most spiritual experience we had ever felt. You could feel the love in the room that Ellysha had for Maddax. That is probably the most selfless, hardest decision anyone would have to make. But she made it because she loves him and wants the best for him.

It makes me so happy to know she trusts us and wants us to be his parents and to love him. She said the most sweet things to him and it really touched my heart to be able to be there and hear her advice to him.

After placement we went into the nursery and got a baby 101 class from one of the nurses. I had a hard time paying attention as we just had said good bye to ellysha and I was almost feeling guilty. Josh took a lot of notes on his phone lol it was really cute.

As we got home it felt so real and I wasnt feeling so guilty but gratitude to ellysha and wanted to be the best mom I can to this little baby she blessed us with.



This is at placement. I was a big emotional wreck.



Josh, Maddax and I leaving the hospital.



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